My biggest fear is…

I am scared of blood.

Yes. Yes, I know I’m a nursing student.

However, I have been told by nurses and teachers that this is a fear I will get over quickly.
How quickly, though?
Like the first time I hit the deck after some guy’s wound starts bleeding on my white scrubs?

I will say though, that I’ve observed a woman having a Cesarean section, and other than the fact that the mask I had to wear messed up my hair and lipstick, I was fine.

This semester, my hospital rotation is on the surgical ward, dealing with patients post-operatively.
This means changing dressings.
Seeing blood.
Changing dressings.
Seeing blood.

During my theory classes, the teacher shows up slides like this…

image from here

…actually, not like that.
But I can’t actually handle looking at them even on Google Images, so this is the picture I chose.
And I’m not much better at looking at them during class.
During one slide, I wondered if anyone would notice me lay my head on the desk.

Anyway, last class, we were taught about surgical protocol, and what occurs during surgery.
The teacher was really pushing the idea of any or all of us gearing up for a surgical practicum.
“Don’t listen to people who say that surgery is boring; that all you do is pass the surgeon his instruments. It’s not just about that,” the teacher says.

And of course, despite many warnings that it’s important not to “zone-out” during these theory classes, the mere mention of the word surgeon has me fantasizing about this guy…

…and I’m suddenly picturing myself standing across an OR table handing him instruments, staring deeply into these eyes…

image from here

…and doing this with him…

What? That could totally be me kissing opposite Patrick Dempsey!

So, after much thought and consideration, I’ve decided to become a surgical nurse.

As long as I don’t have to deal with surgeries in which the patients are positioned like this…

image from here

…I think I’m good.

And anyway, I am going to stick this rotation out because I can totally rock these white scrubs.

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86 Responses to My biggest fear is…
  1. Oilfield Trash
    January 10, 2011 | 5:08 am

    I am afraid of needles.

  2. Carri
    January 10, 2011 | 5:13 am

    You can totally rock it! And yeah… I HATE needles.

  3. Kristina P.
    January 10, 2011 | 5:18 am

    What kind of surgery is that?!?

  4. Unknown Mami
    January 10, 2011 | 5:20 am

    You look great in the scrubs. I don't know how anyone can look at some of these things. I'm glad there are people out there that can stomach it.

  5. Shell
    January 10, 2011 | 5:44 am

    I don't think I could handle the blood. Unless I got to handle McSteamy afterwards. Then I'd suck it up.

  6. SherilinR
    January 10, 2011 | 5:45 am

    during my c-section, when they cut me open, a stream of blood shot across the room & hit one of the nurses right in the back like a squirt gun. exciting, huh?

  7. Yvonne
    January 10, 2011 | 5:50 am

    I hate blood too! Good thing I am not a nurse! And yeah, you're totally rockin the scrubs. And now, I'm off to dream elicit dreams about Patrick Demsey. Good night!

  8. Coffeypot
    January 10, 2011 | 5:53 am

    You do rock that outfit. Now show one of you in the nurse's dress.

  9. Blood doesn't bother me unless it's coming from one of my kids' heads or some other vital area.

    Hopper, though? Yeah. She can't handle it. And with her developmental delays it can prove to be a bit comical…Several years ago, she woke us up on a Saturday morning with a bloody nose. And bless her little heart, with a very stuffed nose from crying and from the drainage, she asked, “Bandaid??”

  10. dbs
    January 10, 2011 | 6:26 am

    Don't take this the wrong way but I'm scared for your patients. ;)

  11. Opto-Mom
    January 10, 2011 | 6:37 am

    You rock the shit out of those white scrubs!

    The only time I've been grossed out was when someone had pubic lice on their eyelashes. The person had severe itching on the eyelids, so I was looking through the microscope picking off what I thought was crust and it MOVED! OMG, it fucking MOVED!

  12. Opto-Mom
    January 10, 2011 | 6:45 am

    You rock the shit out of those white scrubs! Go girl!!!

  13. Kate
    January 10, 2011 | 6:49 am

    You do rock those scrubs. And now I'll have sweet dreams about McDreamy…but I'm thinking that's McSteamy and Little Grey in that photo. He looks a little scruffy to be McDreamy, no? Good luck with the blood and guts and…blood. :)

  14. lyndylou
    January 10, 2011 | 9:25 am

    It's needles I hate even after having chemo, the nurses said it would cure my phobia but hell no, 20 years on, it's as bad as ever. When my son, who is often in hospital has to get a cannula put in, I can't look but I can already feel the blood running out of my face at the thought!!! lol

  15. Sarahf
    January 10, 2011 | 9:42 am

    I'd put up with the blood if I got to cozy up to McSteamy afterwards…

  16. caterpillar
    January 10, 2011 | 10:32 am

    Oh yeah, you do rock those white scrubs…and who wouldn't want to be a surgical nurse when the doctor looks like THAT!!!!! :)

  17. becca
    January 10, 2011 | 11:11 am
  18. Gigi
    January 10, 2011 | 11:20 am

    No way in hell could I be a nurse. I don't do blood, guts, or anything gross. Avoiding all of the above has been difficult seeing as I am a mother.

  19. Portia
    January 10, 2011 | 12:23 pm

    I am not fond of blood and if it is my own, well, thank God there's Xanax. Seeing my kids blood also freaks me out.

    Saturday when my daughter had her baby, I had to leave the room when the stitching was going on. This was after my daughter said, “Mom! Look! My placenta, isn't that COOL?” Yeah. Very. Let me out of here to talk to your dad. Seeing all that post-delivery blood freaked me out. It was my BABY! Bleeding.

    The granddaughter is so totally worth it though!

  20. Holly
    January 10, 2011 | 12:26 pm

    My mom was disappointed I didn't want to be a nurse like her… BLEH… LOL!!
    I have the perfect solution… just join the cast of Grey's Anatomy and you have the best of ALL worlds!! Bahahaha!!

  21. Snuggle Wasteland
    January 10, 2011 | 12:38 pm

    There's no way I could be a nurse. I don't like blood and I don't look good in scrubs, either. Although they are comfy – like wearing pajamas to work.

  22. myevil3yearold
    January 10, 2011 | 12:42 pm

    I'm not even sure what you said. I just saw some pictures of Patrick Dempsey and they mae me happy!

  23. JP
    January 10, 2011 | 12:46 pm

    How come no one ever remembers Patrick Dempsey like this:

    And yeah you are kinda rockin' those scrubs. Kudos. Mmmm… now I'm hungry for a granola bar.

  24. Carla
    January 10, 2011 | 12:49 pm

    It's a good thing my sister is the doctor. I worked on computers, she works on people. I got dirty, she gets bloody. I think that's fair. BTW I thought the picture of the stitched wound was a bug of some sort until I looked longer and closer. See, you really wouldn't want me working on your body.

  25. Snake
    January 10, 2011 | 1:51 pm

    Maybe they'll let you do the actual surgery too . . . lol I'm with you on the blood aspect, unless it's my own . . . Then I'm OK with it . . . Weird, huh? :) Good luck to you Sandra!


  26. Just Plain Tired
    January 10, 2011 | 2:02 pm

    I'm not a fan of blood either.

  27. Shirley
    January 10, 2011 | 2:08 pm

    You will get over it once you learn to disconnect yourself from the blood. I used to hate any bodily fluids. Now I am a surgical tech soon to be nursing student. I scrub c-sections. Even my own parents are shocked.You will be fine. But I still can't handle poop….I just can't and I refuse.

  28. anSeL
    January 10, 2011 | 2:19 pm

    nice! don't stain it with blood…your scrubs!

  29. Lin
    January 10, 2011 | 2:40 pm

    I'm not a fan of blood either but I am a huge fan of McDreamy's…*drool*.

  30. StephanieC
    January 10, 2011 | 2:43 pm


    Turns me into even MORE of a wuss.

    And, indeed – what surgery requires that position so I can avoid it completely forever and ever?

    Seriously??… Reeeally?….. Seriously?


    Way to rock the scrubs!

  31. Brandy Rose
    January 10, 2011 | 2:55 pm

    I get a twinge just looking at pics like that. And I can be bleeding to death and be fine, but if someone gets a paper cut, I lose it!

  32. Bouncin' Barb
    January 10, 2011 | 3:09 pm

    And may all your surgeons look like Patrick or better! Too cute lady!

  33. kristi
    January 10, 2011 | 3:09 pm

    I always loved a nurse uniform, but I have a weak stomach. Love those plastic surgery shows but cannot watch the gross parts. Thank you for visiting my blog, now following yours!

  34. Rebecca
    January 10, 2011 | 3:19 pm

    There was a brand new surgeon looking over and observing Joey's very old surgeon for one of the surgeries he had not long ago….and oh my word……..He was smoking hot! Made that one guy you posted photos of look…meh.

  35. Jojo
    January 10, 2011 | 3:31 pm

    I could NEVER be a nurse but would be tempted if Patrick Dempsey was part of the package!!! You are looking great in your uniform!

  36. Bird Shit and Baby Caca
    January 10, 2011 | 4:01 pm

    I don't know how you do it…I see a needle and get woozy. BTW, rocking the white scrubs, AWESOME!

  37. Zuzana
    January 10, 2011 | 4:02 pm

    You are gorgeous and I think you can easily score Patrick Dempsey.;) I too am not so much fond of blood, mostly not my own. Blood from others doesn't bother me that much as I work with it every day (almost) in the lab.;)
    Thank you so much for your kind visit and a great comment.;)
    Greetings from Denmark,

  38. Ms Bibi
    January 10, 2011 | 4:18 pm

    I am not that good with blood, but worse then that for me is vomit.

    I was always afraid of needles, but since my son was diagnosed with diabetes I had to embraced it. Giving your child needles numerous times a day will do that to a person I guess.

    ….and of course there is Dr. McDreamy…yummy

  39. Katie
    January 10, 2011 | 4:48 pm

    I am with you… I don't mind it, but the idea of not being able to stop something from bleeding freaks me out. Awww McDreamy…. so cute!

  40. qandlequeen
    January 10, 2011 | 4:56 pm

    The suture pic you posted is what oogs me out. I can barely look at my own injuries. Blood I'm fine with, it's the wound, the incision and those damn stitches that make me woozy. Staples? I had to hold my arm up to block the view in the mirror as I took my first shower after c-section. I am not RN material at all. I can talk gross body stuff over lunch with my nurse coworkers, but please don't make me look at any of it.

  41. Diva
    January 10, 2011 | 5:01 pm

    blood creeps me out. I can't even help my poor kids, I have to call my husband or they're on their own. I'm a bad, bad mom.

  42. Holly Ruggiero
    January 10, 2011 | 5:07 pm

    You will become desensitized. I once had to do 500 realistic injury illustrations. I had to see the real thing first. I was nauseated for about a week and then I was drawing open, bloody wounds and drinking my coffee.

  43. Hutch
    January 10, 2011 | 5:28 pm

    What happens if the white scrubs get covered in blood? That would seem like the worst ever to me!

  44. Saimi
    January 10, 2011 | 5:38 pm

    I totally hate needles! Blood I can handle!

  45. Deborah
    January 10, 2011 | 5:46 pm

    LOL … I couldn't agree more, but you definitely gotta stick it just to prove scrubs can actually ook like that on someone!!

  46. Deborah
    January 10, 2011 | 5:51 pm

    ^Hi Deborah! Great name!

    I'm afraid of blood too.


    WV if premutt – does this mean I'm not quite a mutt, but getting there? Hmm . . .

  47. Linda Medrano
    January 10, 2011 | 5:52 pm

    I'm afraid of blood, needles and sick people. But I'm good at taking care of sick people if I don't need to deal with any of that stuff. Maybe I'll become a nurses aide.

  48. Poppy
    January 10, 2011 | 6:16 pm

    Hell, I'd let you give me a sponge back, but I might ask for another surgical nurse! XOXO

  49. randine
    January 10, 2011 | 6:47 pm

    Don't worry your fear of blood will pass. Lots of people in nursing school passed out. I was one of them- but it wasn't cuz I was scared of blood it was cuz I didn't eat breakfast- I know some nurse I am, hey- well at least that's what I told people but maybe it was kind of the blood too.
    Anyways, you'll be fine.

    Now you have me considering being a surgical nurse as well…

  50. meleah rebeccah
    January 10, 2011 | 6:51 pm

    Well, of COURSE you look freaking adorable in your scrubs. Good luck getting over your fear of blood. I'm sure you will become desensitized sooner than later.

    I cannot stand the sight of blood, or the thought of needles – seriously. I have been known to faint at the mere sight of either.


    If that ever happens again, hopefully YOU will be my nurse wielding the smelling salts!

  51. Diane
    January 10, 2011 | 7:29 pm

    I thought of going into nursing once but decided not to since I thought I'd most likely get fired for passing out on the job every time I had to stick a needle into someone's flesh.

    And WTF is that naked dude doing on that thing?

  52. Anne
    January 10, 2011 | 7:31 pm

    I don't like blood much either. Maybe you can find a specialty that doesn't involve a lot of incisions.

  53. Kim
    January 10, 2011 | 7:44 pm

    My husband has 4 stitches in his finger right now, and every time I think of them my stomach goes all whirly-nasty. So not nurse material over here! I think you're rockin' those shoes, as well!

  54. life in the mom lane
    January 10, 2011 | 7:52 pm

    Not a huge fan of blood especially in horror movies, but in real life in an emergency I have never freaked out- I usually have kind of disassociated myself and did what I had to. There are areas of nursing where there is not an excess of blood- but poop, etc I don't think I would like dealing with that.

  55. Mrs. Tuna
    January 10, 2011 | 7:56 pm

    Mrs. Sandra Sheppard has a nice ring to it.

  56. Tracy
    January 10, 2011 | 9:02 pm

    I think you will totally become de-sensitized to the blood and you'll forget you even had that fear!
    …love the images you have in your head! and I'm wondering how many anal surgeries you will acutally have!

  57. My Big Secret Blog :)
    January 10, 2011 | 10:02 pm

    You're going to be a fun surgical nurse!! It's great that you decided on it. :) And you look good in the scrubs, too!

  58. Ameena
    January 10, 2011 | 10:08 pm

    You could rock a burlap sack Sandra!

    And I don't particularly care for blood or needles or hospitals for that matter.

  59. Ann
    January 10, 2011 | 11:10 pm

    The scrubs I could do, their cute and look comfy but beyond that I could never make it as a nurse. Well unless my job was to stand around all day looking at cute doctors :)

    January 10, 2011 | 11:49 pm

    Cute, cute scrubs! Hottie!

  61. Sparkling
    January 11, 2011 | 12:15 am

    A nurse who's squeamish about blood. Wow. I have this butt puckering issue when I see cuts and wounds. I don't feel faint or need to throw up, I just get all puckery in my bunghole. I don't know what it's all about. I'm fascinated by k-ster's wound from his surgery but every so often I look and I pucker. It really only happens if I think it hurts, I've decided. So if he tells me it feels fine, I can look at it until the cows come home. BUt if he was screaming and crying, I might take a moment.

  62. Monkey Man
    January 11, 2011 | 12:36 am

    Those are the perfect scrubs to offset the red of blood. Good choice.

  63. Kimberly
    January 11, 2011 | 1:00 am

    I do blood, guts, pus, vomit but don't ever EVER get me to change an adult diaper. Hell hath no fury than 60 year old soft diet poopy diaper.
    Oh and you look angelic in white. I bet you could stand at the foot of an elderly patients bed and whisper “You're in heaven now” and they would totally buy it.

  64. anne altman
    January 11, 2011 | 2:13 am

    Scrubs are good. Blood is bad. Even fake blood is bad. I'm disturbed by re-enactments.

    Hurt testicle re-enactments are particularly disturbing.

    I'm not ready to go through the terrible teens as a parent!

  65. TheBabyMammaChronicles
    January 11, 2011 | 2:22 am

    Ha, good luck! Love those white scrubs! We are doing black and blue. First day of classes down.

  66. gayle
    January 11, 2011 | 2:37 am

    Once you get over seeing the blood you will do great!!

    January 11, 2011 | 4:16 am

    I have a fear of slugs. And shower curtains. Nothing good ever happens with shower curtains.

  68. On My Soapbox
    January 11, 2011 | 4:32 am

    I didn't know anyone could rock scrubs until now!

  69. Crystal Escobar
    January 11, 2011 | 5:05 am

    Haha, that is so funny! I'm the exact same way, but I would never be brave enough to actually go into nursing of any sort. Good for you :)
    I always imagine that working in a hospital is all exciting like Grays Anatomy, but my friend who is a nurse bursted my bubble when she said it's not :)

  70. Nicole
    January 11, 2011 | 5:29 am

    You do rock the scrubs, but I'm too busy staring at McDreamy.

  71. Lightning Bug's Butt
    January 11, 2011 | 6:57 am

    I can't believe little Ronnie Miller grew up to be Dr. McDreamy.

    Cute scrubs.

  72. Not Blessed Mama
    January 11, 2011 | 10:11 am

    ok, i didn't read all of the comments, but i am hoping i'm not the only one who is thinking that 2nd to last pic is kind of…. nasty.
    but i really wanted to say, thanks for stopping by my blog. ;) am honored from a visit from a FAMOUS gal such as yourself!
    and p.s. that pic is totally nasty, btw.

  73. Lori Ann
    January 11, 2011 | 12:27 pm

    I have just read a few of your posts. I can't decided exactly which one is my favorite, but I do know my favorite line is “go buy the paint” which translates to “go buy the paint” :)

    SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Funny! I am glad to have found your blog. And please forgive my last blog on the extremely exciting topic of SNOW..I think I wrote that one under the influence of Nyquil and crushing boredom:)


  74. Maggi
    January 11, 2011 | 1:12 pm

    Way to rock the scrubs!

    I am so glad there are people that want to be in your profession, I sure couldn't do it! Hopefully the whole blood=icky thing will pass soon like they said! Good luck!

  75. Mamma has spoken
    January 11, 2011 | 2:09 pm

    I want to know what kind of surgery that is too!
    At least you can handle these things. My grandmother wanted me to be a nurse but I couldn't and still can't handle any and all body fluids, and needles.

  76. Danielle
    January 11, 2011 | 3:00 pm

    Patrick soooo used to give me the heeby geebies and now, OMG he is so HAWT!!!!!
    You definitely Rock the white scrubs!

  77. Fizzgig
    January 11, 2011 | 3:17 pm

    my bf is a medic. you know, hes scraped brains out of a tree after a car accident, seen dead babies, ahd people die in the squad….


    i have no understanding on peoples tolerances whatsoever now. he ruined it for me.

  78. Date Girl
    January 11, 2011 | 3:23 pm

    You can definitely rock the white scrubs. The blood thing will get easier the more you're exposed to it I'm sure. I used to not be able to look while I was getting a shot but after working as a vet tech in the past, I can look at needles going in my arm all day and I'm fascinated. Weird right?

  79. Jill
    January 11, 2011 | 4:44 pm

    You do look great in white ;) Yeah, I don't know how docs and nurses do it. I can't stand blood, needles, drs offices, hospitals, etc. I would have never dreamed of being a nurse! xo

  80. Ben Reinhardt
    January 11, 2011 | 5:09 pm

    I'm cool with blood, but I have a vasovagal response and pass out, which sucks cause I look like a wuss :(

  81. ~ Darla ~
    January 11, 2011 | 8:33 pm

    Oh yeah, you're rocking those scrubs, Sandra. I'm only afraid of my own blood :-)

  82. Patti Murphy
    January 11, 2011 | 9:03 pm

    You rock those scrubs, Sandra.

    If Patrick Dempsey gets you through the blood and guts, then go Patrick!

    The model in the nasty surgery picture is muscular at least. I rather doubt that most patients look like that dude in the picture though.

  83. Impulsive Addict
    January 11, 2011 | 9:59 pm

    Ok…I'd like to point out FIRST that you're one away from 1,000 followers. Feel free to send some my way. No seriously. I haven't even broken 200 yet.

    Ok…next I refuse to sound like a broken record by saying that you are definitely rockin' the white scrubs (and yes you so are) but I'm gonna take a different route and say that I think you should be very very careful about your unmentionable colors underneath. If you choose, say, BLACK, there is no room for imagination and all your business will be displayed…especially if you bend over!

  84. Imaginative Me
    January 12, 2011 | 6:12 am

    hahahaha, fantasizing of Dempsey during a lecture… Note to self: make sure any surgery team member you are going to have for any kind of surgery does not look like this pretty lady in the white scrubs!!!

  85. Lady Old Soul
    January 12, 2011 | 7:49 am

    Ohmahgah, I ♥L♥O♥V♥E♥ Grey's Anatomy!!!! That and The Walking Dead are the greatest shows EVAHHH!! =)

    Love the scrubs!! I'm not fond of blood, but I can deal most of the time. I hope that transition goes quickly for you!! =)

  86. Angie
    January 13, 2011 | 10:13 pm

    I am a phlebotomist – well, actually a Medical Lab Technologist – so I am obviously okay with blood.

    Just remember it doesn't hurt you a bit when it isn't yours ;-)

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